May 19th, 2020

xray

5-1 | Gaps

Our spare room is a little bit of everything. it's an office with a desk & computer. It's a guest room with a full-size bed. Unfortuantely, it's also purgatory for things that have no other proper place to go in the house. Although I wish the room was far less cluttered than it is, it's probably better to clutter one room and spare the others.

This morning, I was trying to de-clutter a bit and found some old notebooks. So, of course I couldn't just stack them up and put them on a shelf or throw them away. I had to flip through them to see what gems I might find inside. (This is why it always took me sooooo long as a kid to clean my room. I couldn't just clean. I had to sort, read & analyze everything. I'm better than I was as a kid, but I still have room for improvement.)

Among the pages of one of my reporter's notebooks, I found this:

"We fill the gaps of other people with our own insecurities."

Ain't that the truth? I've certainly been guilty of that myself a time or two (or a hundred). However, as I've narrowed the pool of voices that I trust over the last several years, I think this is one particular trait I've improved on greatly. Howewver, promoting at work has allowed me to see how big of an issue it is for others. It has become intereresting to see how many people who constantly have negative feedback do so because their subconscious is looking in a mirror.