July 27th, 2003


"The List" - Real entry to follow?

The ever present...
Jessie - Lying in my bed now... asleep. But sort of here against my will.

Old school...
Alex - I talk with her about once every three months. I'm still not sure where she's headed in life. But pretty sure that I'm not really a part of it.

Lindsay - Married now. For how long, I'm not sure. I have no idea how to reach her. I doubt I exist in her mind.

Julie - Should be married, too. She's not talking to me because of said marriage, which is understandable. Whatever we had was pretty much tied to sex.

Lisa - Someone I didn't like much at all... and thus, when I got really drunk once, I felt the need to play show and tell with her. Yeah, that made sense. I swore I'd never do it again. And, then, I did it again the last night of my college career. She lives on a different planet now. At least, that's what I tell myself.

The new generation...
Natalie - Thinks we'll never see each other again. Things haven't been the same since our week-long affair in October '02. It has nothing to do with the affair and everything to do with life getting in the way. She's a great friend when I don't neglect her.

Christy - We met a few weeks ago for the first time in months... and were supposed to meet again. She said she'd never talk to me again if I didn't call to arrange for the second meeting. I didn't call. I'm not sure what this means or why it happened.

Melody - She got me drunk at a party & took me home with her in February. I haven't seen or heard from her since. I heard through the grapevine that she was pretty sick and in the hospital here in Franklin. I almost went to visit. That's the kind of guy I am. I decided against it. That's also the kind of guy I am. She got better. It makes me feel not so rotten for being the kind of guy I am.

Leeann - I was at work one night and logged onto Yahoo. She chimed in out of the blue and we struck up conversation. We met for lunch. We met for dinner. She came over a third time and I showed her what my bed felt like. I haven't talked to her since. She called my cell phone the other day... but didn't leave a voice mail. I want to call her back. I'm just not sure what to say.

Robin - I thought I would try the idea in reverse. I randomly IMed a girl one night. We struck up conversation. We met for drinks. We met for dinner. I brought a movie over to her place for meeting #3. She told me that she wasn't going to fool around and that she didn't plan on having sex until marriage. I spent the night. She took back what she said. We're still friends... but she's moving out of state in a month.