Something happened to me after that. Thoughts that had normally made no sense started to clear up. Things started to click in my brain and in my heart.
In the first week of 2006, I told her that I wasn't going to look back and that I didn't want her to, either. The past -- for better and for worse -- was what brought us to this point. Change yesterday and today could be totally different. I told her that 2006 was going to be a year for us and that the only direction I was looking was ahead. I think she agreed.
With a new perspective on life and on Jessie, it hit me -- it was time to make a decision.
(Originally written 0140 CST, 14 January 2006)