I don't think you know how much time I spend
As I wait on my own contemplating ends
I am torn in the middle of a world that won't let loose
I hang here before you, though invisible the noose

I love you if you drink; I love you if you smoke
I love you for the words you stuck inside my throat
I love you for the sin; and the way you turned away
And I'll heal you in the darkness; and I'll hold you to the day

All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?
All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?

And I walk up those steps where we used to go at night
And my fingers trace the stairwell and I am back in time
I just need your warmth to lay with me and find

All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?
All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?

There are days that I go driving, when the memory gets too strong
So I can go on living to the beauty of our song
I fall in to your rhythm, your beauty I do fly
I rush into your melody, I linger till I die

All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?
All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?

And I've been here with the pain since the very first day
I've been swearing in my rage "Oh Holy Day!"
I sit around, your salvation waits
I'm just getting nervous, babe, as I anticipate

All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?
All you are now is only just a dream
Can you fall down in following me?

Just A Dream
Griffin House

(Here's the link to the song if the embeded player doesn't load.)

This performance might not win you over -- it's on TV and I think they're a little out of their element... but this band still needs to be on your "acts to see live" list. Everything about this band rocks when they're live and in person. I'm already planning to see two shows this summer.

Deadline Pressure updated!
"These are the hands that rubbed Megan Adams' knee while parked in my truck after my first real date. Strangely enough, they were under the direction of the same brain that was too chicken to tell my lips to kiss her."

Entry: [ 04 December 2007 ]

I walked down to the park last night
Warm breeze stirring up a soft moonlight
And my mind started drifting to way back when
Yes I do think about you every now and then

The other day I saw a car like you used to drive
I got a funny feeling down deep inside
And for the briefest moment I felt a smile begin
Yes I do think about you every now and then

I love my life and I'd never trade
Between what you and me had and the life I've made
She's here and she's real, but you were too
And every once in a while I think about you

I heard a song on the radio just yesterday
The same one you always asked me to play
And when the song was over
I wished they'd played it again
Yes I do think about you every now and then

I love my life and I'd never trade
Between what you and me had and the life I've made
She's here and she's real, but you were too
And every once in a while I think about you

I've been layin' here all night listenin' to the rain
Talkin' to my heart and tryin' to explain
Why sometimes I catch myself
Wondering what might have been
Yes I do think about you every now and then

Every Now And Then
Buddy Mundlock / Garth Brooks

     I disappeared from your life for your own good. To be in your life without committing to it was selfish for me and, most of all, unfair to you. I miss you often. There's not a week that goes by that I don't think about you. Almost as often, I think of a reunion. I wonder if it would be happy or sad or angry -- hoping for anything but angry. Months have passed. I know you have moved on. To drop in and say hello now might be out of place. But I do miss you. I miss your smile. I miss your personality. I miss your friendship. Sure, I'm happy now. I have no room to complain. I have a wife and a cat and a house and a job and purpose. But rarely does happiness come without holes. Your being gone is a hole. I can not fill it with anything I have here. I left to protect you. I stay gone to protect us both. Carrying out the latter is proving much harder than the former.

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